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Boobs o%D3%D0%C2%EB%CE%DE%BC%AB%C6%B7%BA%CF%BC%AFa Szh : Boobs l Kthe g Dreamxxxgirl e Kthe .searcho ~fienybo ,search99 Szh b Szh o Kthe -search3 Boobs 9 ~fienybo 6 Boobs 32012-05-15T23:56:22.690+08:00Michelleprofile/13289325395141279902noreply@blogger.com爸爸不在了死亡，是人生必经之路。可是为什么它还是那么令人难以接受？<br /><br />爸爸的逝世，可以说很突然。他最近很弱，我们知道，只是真的没想到那么快，他就离开了...... <br /><br />爸爸的逝世，我的心情很复杂...... 爸爸这几年活得挺痛苦的吧。。。常常这里痛那里痛，我们除了带他看医生，还能做什么...? 有时止痛药也帮不了。死亡，也许对爸爸是一种解脱....... 但是我真的很舍不得他...... <br /><br />平时我常埋怨爸爸这个，埋怨爸爸那个...... 可是他是我爸爸，我还是爱他的... 十年前，他和妈妈两个人第一次出国旅行，开心的回来，开心的期待下一次的旅行....... 孩子大了，做工赚钱了，他们可以退休享受了。可是爸爸在这个时候发现患了肾病....... 每几天就要洗肾，哪里都去不了。。。爸爸妈妈怎么这么苦命......?? 生命是不公平的。I hate life. <br /><br />我真的很心痛，看到爸爸妈妈旅行的照片，爸爸开心的笑容，永远再也看不到了....... 最近，看到爸爸疼痛的时候颤抖的手... 无力的走... 我们没有办法做什么。。。 我的心真的很痛。很后悔，没对爸爸再好一点，很后悔，没有再关心爸爸多一点，很后悔，没和爸爸再亲一点............. 现在再后悔也没有用........ 庆幸，哥哥比我关心爸爸多一点。。。<br /><br />最后一次我们出外用餐，是提早两个星期庆祝母亲节，我看着爸爸，我觉得他的眼睛好象不怎么睁得开...... 我担心.... 想不到，担心的事，那么快就来临...... 看着在灵柩里的爸爸，我了解到，为什么会有子女为死去的父母打防腐剂，把他们继续留在身边，因为，看着灵柩里的爸爸，我也想这么做....... 我舍不得爸爸。。。。。。我舍不得爸爸。。。。。。<br /><br />如果爸爸的生命可以获得延长，那好吗？他活得那么痛苦，疼痛，吃不了多少．．．心情很复杂...... 但是想这些也没有用。<br /><br />妈妈说，爸爸走前的那个晚上，他去了我的房间躺了两次，他从来不去我的房间的。我听了，更难受....... 爸爸是疼我的....... 爸爸在的时候，我忘了，爸爸是疼我的。。。<br /><br />我对着躺着的爸爸说，一定要来我的梦里。出殡那天的晚上，我真的梦见了爸爸。两次。两次梦见爸爸回家了。真的很神奇。通常我们的梦，很少会梦见自己家，梦的背景总是天马行空。可是这两个梦，都是在我家，梦境历历在目。而且两个梦，背景都是我家。这样的几率有多少？<br /><br />才上个礼拜，我在客厅拉二胡，爸爸走过来看我的二胡谱。现在.... 爸爸已经不再了................. 我不能接受........... <br /><br />妈妈说到爸爸对她的好，就会哭。。。 我一个人独处的时候，想到爸爸，也会哭。。。 哥哥也不想多说话。。。<br /><br />我讨厌人生。我讨厌生离死别。为什么要有人生。人生是痛苦的。。。<br /><br />如果有来世，爸爸，你一定要投胎做一个健健康康的人，一定要一生幸福！一定要！！ <br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='tracker/13298673-3336401923896842336?l=diveaway.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Michelleprofile/13289325395141279902noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13298673.post-72566646064922206852012-04-27T23:27:00.001+08:002012-04-27T23:45:20.129+08:00<br />两个多月没写部落格了。因为两个多月前，开始学了二胡。有一天突然兴起学二胡的念头，上网找了一找，万万没想到在新山还能找到二胡老师，而且还不止一位，实在让我很意外。找到了老师几乎马上就去报了名。从兴起念头到报了名，只是很短的时间。这就是我。说做就做呗 ^_^<br /><br />开始上课前，在Youtube找二胡的video，有几个video做了简短的二胡曲教学，第二次的万万没想到，video 里拉二胡的男生，就是我的老师！！ 哈哈，好好笑。<br /><br />上了第一堂课，我更深深地爱上了二胡，学二胡，绝对是一个正确的决定 ^_^ 我手指短，学吉他不行。。。 学二胡，勉强还可以。不过我觉得，会比其他人学二胡难一些。。。 但是我天资聪颖（吐吧！），拉得还不错，老师给了我很多称赞，我高兴得都要飞上天了~哈哈~~~ 老师说我学得很快，是他教过的学生中学得最快的 :D 高兴死了~~~！！！<br /><br />每学会一首曲，我就好有成就感，好高兴，即使是简短的曲。所以从第一堂课开始我就几乎天天练习。一天不练就不开心，无时无刻都想着练琴。做梦都梦见拉二胡哦! 而且梦了有四，五次那么多，有点走火入魔了。哈哈~<br /><br />在学二胡之前的几个月，我着迷着另一样事物，油画。花了三百多块钱，买了一堆的材料，在网上看了些video,读了些资料，就这样开始画。出来的画还挺不错D。 哈~同样的开心！！看着自己画的画，其实自己也很惊讶，会在那里想，我是怎么做到的。<br /><br />现在大部分时间给了二胡，火热的迷恋着二胡两个多月，现在该分一点时间给油画了吧。我不能放弃或忽略画画。不要脸的自认画的很不错=p 一定要继续加油！！！<br /><br />I haven't been writing blog for over two months, because I started learning erhu. One day out of nothing, I felt like learning erhu, so I went online and did a search. I was actually really surprised that I could find an erhu teacher in JB, and there are not only one erhu teacher here! Once I found the teacher, I registered myself almost immediately. It was only a very short period of time from having the thought of learning erhu to registration. That is me. Just do it!<br /><br />I watched some videos before the erhu class started. There were a few videos of a young boy demonstrating some short erhu songs. I would never have guessed that boy would be my erhu teacher! Surprised again! LOL...<br /><br />I fell more in love with erhu after the first lesson. Learning erhu is an absolute right decision ^_^ I have short fingers, can't really learn guitar... still ok for erhu. But I feel that it's still a bit more difficult than other people because of the length of my fingers. However, I am talented (go ahead and puke =p ) , I am not bad at all with erhu~~ Teacher praised me a lot, I was on cloud 9 all the time~! He said I am the fastest learner amongst all the students he had taught~ Happy ~~~!!!<br /><br />It is so satisfying whenever I learnt a song, even if it's a short one. It makes me really happy. I&nbsp;practiced nearly&nbsp;everyday since the first lesson. I am not happy if I didn't get to practise, I think about playing erhu all the time..I even dreamt about playing erhu! hahaha.. and it wasn't once but four or five times! LOL... I am obsessed...<br /><br />Few months back, before I started learning erhu, I was crazy with another - oil painting. Spent over $300, bought myself a bunch of oil painting material and started painting. And they aren't bad at all! my paintings~~ Equally happy~ I am actually quite amazed by myself whenever looking at my own paintings. I really wonder how did I ever do it. LOL...<br /><br />Now I've given most of my time to playing erhu. Crazily in love with erhu for over 2 months, I guess I should give some time to oil painting now. I can't neglect or give up oil painting. I must gambatte with erhu painting too!<br /><br /><br /><table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><tbody><tr><td style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://kthe.dreamxxxgirl.com/b/%D1%C7%D6%DE%CE%DE%C2%EB%BA%CF%BC%AF/szh/1" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><img border="0" height="240" ><img width='1' height='1' src='tracker/13298673-8049035024854274500?l=diveaway.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Michelleprofile/13289325395141279902noreply@blogger.com2